This Crush Sucks
having a crush on you is so annoying.
but i just can’t shake it.
even knowing you have a girlfriend now.
even knowing that it couldn’t work out in the short term, because we work together on this project.
even knowing we couldn’t go anywhere with it because it wouldn’t be fair to the other people on the project.
even knowing you don’t think coworkers should date anyway.
even knowing it couldn’t work out in the long term because we have different life goals.
what would really do it, for sure (i think) is if i knew you weren’t interested.
because there are too many extenuating circumstances.
there are too many reasons we can’t do this that i know, even if you were interested, you’d act like you weren’t.
and that’s just it. you don’t really act like you aren’t.
but maybe that’s just how you roll.
maybe you are genuinely, platonically into us being friends.
that’s cool. i feel that way about people too.
and they always think i might have a crush on them.
but even knowing that isn’t really enough to crush this crush.
if i could just ask you. are you attracted to me?
if i could just ask that, and you’d just say no, i think that could put this shit to rest.
i’d be embarrassed. you might feel a little weird about me for a while.
it could ruin our friendship, as it stands, but it’d be totally ok in the long run…
but you know what could actually be worse?
if you said yes.
cause we can’t take this anywhere anyway.
